Itโ€™s really been four months?

I log on to WordPress and it says it’s been four months since my last blog. I guess I’ve been at a loss for words. (Pun intended). I’m sure none of my followers has lost sleep over this. I did on the other hand did have a period of some lack of sleep for no apparent reasons.

I haven’t blogged because the last few months have been stressful to me and I think I have been sad. I do not handle stress well. I looked up stress and it’s just a way your body responds to demands and threats. They say your body goes into a fight or flight mode. I believe my body does this on a regular basis and there is really no threats or demands that are in my life that are worth the pain and headaches this causes within itself.

I get stressed very easily. If there is too many things to do in the upcoming week I stress till every little task is completed. This explains the last four months. There has been so much more added to my daily life that I’m trying to adjust. Then there is the regular stress that most people have already in their life financial, family, careers. Those alone can send someone into a stress related coma.

When I get stressed my body tenses up more than normal. My muscles stay tight already so it’s like I turn into a brick wall literally. Then if I feel my todo list is more than I can handle I start an elimination process. I get rid of anything extra I have planned to do that week that doesn’t need to be done. These things are basically extra curricular activities I’ve set for myself. It could be time I set aside to exercise, time I planned on doing my prayer journal, sit outside and drink a cup of tea, or family time.

When I look at what I take out of my stressful week to make it easier. I’ve actually took out everything that could potentially make life less stressful. It’s just at the time when I’m focused on seeing the weekly tasks ahead I put them all together and it turns into my mind seeing everything needs done now mode. So, I take out anything I can for it to seem less bewildering to me.

No, I’m not blogging to complain but to maybe help someone like me. I know that this way of dealing with things is not healthy. It’s just hard to change when you’ve been this way your whole life.

The last three weeks have been especially crazy for me. I’ve been so stressed out I’ve either been on the verge of tears or biting someone’s head off for no apparent reason other than I lost control figuring out how to deal with life.

Honestly my life isn’t really stressful just normal. I just make it stressful by not dealing with deadlines and daily tasks as well as most people can.

For instances, if I have more than one extra thing to do in a day that was not expected. I stress out till that day is over. I’m such a planner that when things happen and I have to change or move things that I’ve already set in my head to do. I go crazy until I can make it work. I’m definitely not one of those fly by the seat of pants kind of people. I’m also one who is not at least fifteen minutes early to an appointment I consider myself late. Lol

The only thing that kept me sane the last few weeks was praying. If the Lord did not help me see things differently I think I would have had a nervous breakdown by Thanksgiving. If I do not learn to control stress it will control me. It has already caused physical ailments here and there. If God forbid something big happens I’d probably end up in the grave because if I can’t deal with little things, big things will take me down.

The thing is I pray more for others than myself. Which it is great to pray for others. Just don’t forget that your important too. When I finally decided to get down off the pity pot. I stopped and prayed about everything that was going in my life that overwhelmed me. I actually was able to be grateful for how God intervened on my behalf. He made what looked to me as a mountain in the beginning seem as just a little bump in the road when it was over.

I guess I’m blogging after four months of not to say. Take one day at a time because you can only take care of present. The past is gone and the future isn’t promised. I’d hate to think I wasted a beautiful day and end up dying before the day I worried about came.

It’s not easy for me to do what I know is right. I know prayer changes things. I know God won’t let me down or give up on me. The struggle of life is real. Just hang in there if you feel the way I’ve been the last few months. Keep praying and when things change you will be stronger for what you endured.

Thank You so much for reading and God Bless!

Starting to feel alive again

I’ve been doing low carb for a week now. If you read my last blog you know I’m doing it to reduce my sugar intake due to inflammation.

I’m happy to report I’ve lost five pounds. The scale actually kept going down and stayed down. Usually, I weigh myself most mornings and my weight fluctuates one-three pound difference. It’s very discouraging. I only went up a few ounces the day after cheat day. It came right back down with one day of eating right.

Finally, I’m making progress. I’m not only seeing a weight difference but I’ve felt so much better. I have not had this much energy and clarity since March. I kinda keep a monthly diary and that’s how I know it’s been a long time since I felt this good.

I haven’t been depriving myself of anything either. I find a new way to eat the food I like and for the not so healthy ones I just cut the portion size way down.

So, if your struggling with inflammation, weight gain, bloating and pain. I do suggest going low carb.

I had small serving of cheese sticks from Arby’s on a regular day. It took a lot of my fat and carbs for the day but it satisfied my craving and I just made sure the rest of the day I ate only healthy food.

My cheat day was another story lol. It was Fatherโ€™s Day and I made peanut butter fudge. I ate three servings. I made sure to get my workout in that day!

It’s okay to splurge once in awhile but I got to where everyday I was splurging. I wasn’t mindful of what or how much I was eating. Late night snacking was turning my body into mush.

I know I can lose weight but I’ve got to learn that I’m someone that can’t diet. I am going to have to stay focused all the time or I’ll fall quickly back into bad habits. I found that out the hard way.

I want to lose the weight once more and not find it again after the holidays.

My struggle is real but so is my will to live.

Thanks so much for reading, and God Bless!

My Crazy Life……

It’s been two and 1/2 months since my last blog. I think I was sick with allergies for about 5 weeks. Then I became so tired from not sleeping good. School let out and fixed that problem. Then here in the last few weeks I’ve felt blah. Turned a year older and my body fell apart even more.

Going to the DR. is a big no for me until I know I can’t fix the problem myself first. I know I have IBS and I also have a lot of inflammation going on. Some of my inflammation is from being out of alignment. Going to the chiropractor to take care of that tomorrow. Then I did a lot of reading and I do believe food is my problem. I love carbs and things high in carbs has lots of sugar. Then you have the carbs turning to sugar as well. Which means my body is getting too much sugar. I honestly believe this is my problem . I can’t lose weight and keep it off, I stay bloated which leads to me being aggravated and not too much fun to be around. My sugar has never been too high but it doesn’t mean it’s not affecting me other ways.

So, I am now giving low carb a shot. With a cheat day once in awhile because I love Italian food. I started yesterday and within 24 hours I already feel 50% better.

I’ll let you know in a few weeks if it works for me!

Thanks for reading and God Bless!

Just the way I am!

Last year, Easter was two weeks away and I wanted so much to fit into a dress I had in my closet for over a year. This year I’ve done nothing but kick myself for gaining half my weight loss back. I’ve had many do over weeks but something always happens and I mess up. Usually, its weather related or stress. My two biggest obstacles I have when trying to lose weight.

Today, I got out that dress and decided to put it on (if possible). I put it on without any shape wear. Made me feel a lot better about myself. Of course today’s picture isn’t as nice as last yrs. but I have no make up on, my hair is not fixed, and I did mention no shape wear.

Here is the picture so u can see for yourself.

I learned that my weight will go up and down. I have to want to lose weight to lose it. It’s not easy to lose but so easy to gain. I can reach my goal again. I am who I was a year ago if not better. I may let the scale intimidate me but I always come out a winner in the end! Nobody, looks good all the time. Pictures are deceiving. Happiness comes from the inside not the outside. I’m just the way I am!

Have a great day! Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

Hurry Up Spring

It’s been a little over three weeks since my last blog.

My life has been uneventful. I don’t mind though. The older I get the more I enjoy being home. We have had a few teaser spring days since my last blog. Supposed to have a few more the next few days just for it to be taken away the day after spring officially arrives.

Daylight savings time is here and that makes me happy. It’s crazy that one hour forward makes some people happier and others not so much. I’m not a morning person so that must be why I like the longer evenings.

I’ve been doing Zumba on Mondays. It’s a good workout. I try to take walks when it’s warm enough. I was jogging then the weather stopped cooperating and I was forced to stay in. Okay maybe forced is a strong word but I don’t like cold weather. It makes me hurt all over. Another annoying thing about getting older. This week I had ZUMBA class twice. There was a group of college kids in for spring break. They liked Mondays class so I had an extra class for them today. They were so sweet. Kinda, felt young for awhile there.

Tomorrow, I’m going Easter dress shopping with my youngest. I have to say I am quite upset with myself. I have not lost any weight I gained. I have been losing and gaining the same four pounds over and over. I took a whole year to lose weight got where I needed to be just to gain half of it back. I had my picture taken today and a side view is never really a good angle. Today, was no exception to that. I was so disgusted in myself. Maybe it was the kick in the pants I needed to get back on track.

This week I have done good. No eating after 7:30 and I am trying to plank at least 30 seconds a day. It’s a challenge we’re doing in a group.

I know I am whining a lot but this is real. Where I logged my weight with the Fitness Pal app for the last few years I notice a pattern. I am always heavier in the winter than any other season. I am the smallest by the end of summer and early fall. Which coincides with I’m happier during the times I’m smallest and kinda depressed in the winter lol.

I just thought I’d share in case someone else might be feeling like me. I might get knocked down but I always get up. One of these days I’m going to stay up. I just gotta figure out how.

Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

My Struggle is so real!

I thought that January was a rough month till February came. The first 1/2 anyway. I had the winter blues for a few days. Our weather is crazy. It was cold one week then we had rain the next and that caused some flooding in the area. Thank goodness I’m on top the mountain.

The past couple days have been awesome. The sun has been out and the temperature is in the mid 70’s. Now, I can actually get outside and relieve built up tension by walking or jogging.

I also need to get off this weight I gained back. It’s crazy, it took a year to lose enough weight for me to feel happy and comfortable with my appearance and I felt pretty healthy too. In three months I gained back half of what I lost. Many factors contributed. Holiday goodies, weather, lack of sleep, and a lot of stress. Let’s be real though. The biggest problem is I ate way more than necessary. It had nothing to do with burning calories because I still managed getting a workout inside the house. I just ate too much food that was bad for me. I let my emotions take over and I would eat junk food to make me feel better. Now I have to work extra hard to get in shape again.

You ever wonder about those that look like their lives are put together? Do they really enjoy getting up in the morning and exercising? Do they make mistakes? Do they not have stress? Is their life that perfect? My guess is no because perfection is really something you try to get but doesn’t really exist. That’s my opinion anyway. The closest to perfection is doing your best! So, I just have to ask myself everyday, was that the best you could do?

Thanks so much for reading and be the best you can be! God Bless!

Walking the dog, An Adventure or Workout

My dog Bear is a Great Pyrenees. He’s about seven. We had him on a shock collar but he got where he couldn’t hear it over vehicles and take off after tires ,four wheelers, anything really loud. Don’t worry he didn’t feel the shock due to fur. The noise is what he always went by.

Then we left him loose and if you know the breed they like to make a large circle. He always came home and that was good until he started harassing neighbors lol. Most people fear him because of his size and bark but he’s just a big baby.

Our next thing is trying to get a long cable put up. Hopefully, he won’t break it.

I thought it was time to leash train him. I tried yrs ago but it didn’t work well. I got leash burn. This time I bought a two handle padded leash.

Today, we tried it out. It was a bit of a struggle due to him wanting to run. I managed to keep a hold of him. He actually let me for the most part. He jumped on me a few times but not with full force or I’d been on the ground. He’s taller than I ham when he’s on two legs. He really is a gentle giant.

I just had muddy paw prints all over me by time I got home lol.

I know this dog could of got away if he really wanted to and there was a few times I had to hold on and pull back to keep from being dragged. I took treats to give him when he was being good and listening. Then our trip ended in a small adventure lol. My workout today ended up being walking the dog. The cardio version would be jogging down the hill due to the fact I had my cat follow me halfway up the mountain. Then I see two dogs (thankfully, my dog didn’t see or hear one growl) because he’s a little older and slower than he used to be. I hollered NO twice they turned and went the other way and I slowly turned to go home. Trying not to show fear until I couldn’t see them anymore. Then I decided we should jogged our butts home. While my dog and cat remained clueless lol ๐Ÿ˜‚ I should mention he did great jogging down the mountain!

Need a workout? I suggest get a big dog or walk someone’s for them lol.

My Fitbit registered it as a elliptical workout and I burned 352 calories ๐Ÿ˜Š

Thanks for reading and God Bless!