Brr baby it’s cold outside

How is everyone holding up? Tomorrow we will be three weeks into the new year. How is life going so far? It feels like it’s been way longer than three weeks to me.

As I mentioned before, my goal is to try and find positivity every day. If it’s just something small to be grateful for, at least I’m trying to stay thankful for life even though last year felt like a complete mess.

The last week I won’t lie; it has been bumpy. We have had snow, rain, and more clouds than sunshine. I do miss the sun. I did get out Tuesday, and the sun was shining, and it did make me feel better. Sometimes I wonder if I don’t get seasonal depression.

I still find things to be thankful for, so I have not given up yet. I have to realize that life is not just a nice beautiful drive. There is plenty of roadwork and roadblocks that will get in our way from time to time. I’m one of those people that hate any traffic literally or in life itself. Patience is a virtue and one I can’t seem to acquire.

Now I’ll stop whining and tell you some good things I found during a cold, wet, and dull week.

I captured photos of cardinals and other birds by putting cat food outside for them to eat. I had to take the pictures inside the house, but I’m still pleased with the final photographs.

I also enjoyed making pancakes Sunday morning and sitting down with my family for breakfast which is rare. We usually eat dinner together, but for breakfast, we are generally on different schedules.

I did even go outside and take a few snow pictures. The first snow is always fun, but I find it not as appealing when it comes back again. I still tried to find something to photograph. I think I will have to challenge myself more on what I take pictures of. I need new inspiration.

I’m always thinking of things to do, but I usually change my mind quicker than I start because I’m afraid of failure. Who wants to give their heart and soul into something to find out nobody supports you. Don’t get me wrong; it’s not people finding fault in what I do as much as I find fault in myself. One of the hardest things to learn is validation from others is not needed, but validation from yourself is.

This week has been a little blah; Yet, God has seen fit to keep me here for a reason. I need to be thankful and keep trying to be the best person I can be. I need to keep seeing the light at the end of the tunnel even though shadows try to block my sight. Today is a gift, and I need to be happy no matter how much or how little pleasure it brings.

Thank you for reading! My struggle is real, but I won’t quit ♥️

Have a great day and God Bless

January 4th

Today I woke up to a freezing morning. I’m thankful I could get the car started and defrosted for work. Work was good, and I even went to town and got groceries.

I found that my whole day was pretty positive, which is lovely considering what yesterday was like.

How was your day today?

God Bless!

Self Care is Important

I have been on fall break this past week. My goal was to work on all the areas I felt like I had been failing in for a while.

First and foremost I needed to get back to praying more. I felt like I was carrying around problems on my shoulders that I had no control over. I had to give them over to God to handle. I’m sure he was thinkng “why she carrying that heavy load when I can carry it for her?”

I also needed to get back to being more healthy. I need to lose some weight and get more fit. So, this week I started the 5k runner app, and if I only get to a mile jog and nothing else. I’m okay with that as long as I know I did my best. It’s been four years since I tried to jog. I have only did the app this week and it’s helped me feel better. My Fitbit actually has peak minutes. It’s been a while since I’ve seen those. I’ve not eaten the best but I am making better choices and since I’ve helped my stress level I’m not doing the nighttime binge eating I was doing.

Then I also wanted to do small things that made me happy and feel better about myself. Things I enjoy like writing, photography, or more simple things like watching a movie and drinking a hot cup of cocoa.

I have to say just doing these things this week has made me a better person. Self-care is important! If you take care of yourself it makes it easier and less stressful to take care of others and to also do the work that is needed or required from you.

I’m hoping to continue these things when I go back to work. The time needed to do these things could be achieved within an hour. I think I’m worth and deserve an hour. Make sure you are taking care of yourself.

Remember, you can’t pour from an empty cup.

I hope you enjoyed this post, thanks for reading, and God Bless

Finding Happiness

I thought last year was a tough year. This year takes the cake. I have fought off being depressed many times. I feel like we have been through so much, but I know there are others who has it worse than we do.

Life will kick you down when you’re not looking. I have found myself praying a way out of many emotions and situations I was unable to deal with on my own.

That’s the thing though, if you pray through it, you can get through it. I’m not saying it’s always easy but it can make a difference in how you cope with what life throws at you.

Today, I had to take my daughter’s rabbits to the vet early this morning and go back and pick them up. I also had to get groceries and do errands. I could have had a bad day if I dwelt on the inconvenience of getting out of bed early and going to town. Then also be aggravated for having to stay in town all day because they would not be ready for pick up for 7 hours. Remember, I live 45 mins from town so running home and back across the mountain was not feasible.

I chose to have a great day. I dropped the rabbits off and then I went down to a place called Cumberland Gap and had a nice latte at the best coffee house ever. Then I walked some trails and took pretty decent pictures. Had a nice little talk with Jesus.

It was wonderful! I tried all day getting pictures of squirrels and they were too busy gathering nuts to stop and let me take their picture. At one point I said please God let me get a picture of this squirrel but it scurried off. I said okay, and it wasn’t two minutes later and I got to see and take pictures of three deer.

This was a reminder to me that sometimes you ask God for things and he has something bigger and better for you instead.

I don’t always have a lot of time to do what I want to do, but I do have the time to make the best of the free time I have. I’m sure I’ve wrote about this before somewhere, but every day may not be good but there is something good in every day. We just have to look hard sometimes to find it.

I pray those that are reading this finds the good in today.

Thank you for reading and God Bless