It’s been almost a month since my last blog. I don’t know about you, but February may be the shortest month of the year, but I feel it’s the longest.
I think by the time February gets here, I’m done with the cold and gloomy days. I’m ready for sunshine and warmer weather.
I still have been finding things to be grateful for but here’s what I know. Just because you are grateful doesn’t mean you won’t have sad days or days of illness.
For the last two weeks, I’ve been dealing with both. Last week I was just tired of working and cleaning all the time and feeling as though I had no time for anything else. So, I managed to leave housework behind and go for a hike. It was chilly, but I needed the fresh air and a break from daily life.
The last few days, I’ve felt tired, and I can’t seem not to get tired no matter what I do. It doesn’t matter how much sleep I get or caffeine I drink; nothing works.
So, I decided to try and be healthier, and in doing so, I think my body is in detox, and it’s not happy.
I know many people who can not make easy decisions without causing anxiety. That’s what life is, though, making decisions all day long. We decide what we will wear, eat, drink, exercise or not, and many other choices.
This is what makes me wonder about so many others who have been through so much pain and sickness. Some decide to give up on being happy, and others choose to hang on.
Do we all have a breaking point? Will we all give up on being happy eventually if things don’t get better?
If I didn’t have the Lord in my life, I would have given up already. I can remember many times when I just wanted to not live up to what I was capable of due to failure.
If I had given up on writing, I would have never published my children’s books. If I had stopped taking pictures, I would have missed some great shots. If I had given up on what I wanted because of being too tired or feeling sad and doubtful, I would have missed out on many things that brought me happiness.
Being grateful helps one be happier, but it doesn’t keep all the sadness out. We still need to know that life likes to throw things at us, and they can feel like too many minor inconveniences or one big hassle.
That’s when we need to be having those talks with Jesus and not to forget the things that bring happiness to our lives. I have a hard time not doing work that needs to be done first and then later realizing that the laundry will never be 100% done or anything else.
If I don’t take a break and do some much-needed self-care, then I’m just slowly destroying my happiness. It’s okay to take time and enjoy the sunshine because you can do laundry when the sun goes down.
I choose to hang on because the struggle is real, but this too shall pass.
Thank you for reading I hope it helped someone to hang on who planned on giving up. God Bless!