Just the way I am!

Last year, Easter was two weeks away and I wanted so much to fit into a dress I had in my closet for over a year. This year I’ve done nothing but kick myself for gaining half my weight loss back. I’ve had many do over weeks but something always happens and I mess up. Usually, its weather related or stress. My two biggest obstacles I have when trying to lose weight.

Today, I got out that dress and decided to put it on (if possible). I put it on without any shape wear. Made me feel a lot better about myself. Of course today’s picture isn’t as nice as last yrs. but I have no make up on, my hair is not fixed, and I did mention no shape wear.

Here is the picture so u can see for yourself.

I learned that my weight will go up and down. I have to want to lose weight to lose it. It’s not easy to lose but so easy to gain. I can reach my goal again. I am who I was a year ago if not better. I may let the scale intimidate me but I always come out a winner in the end! Nobody, looks good all the time. Pictures are deceiving. Happiness comes from the inside not the outside. I’m just the way I am!

Have a great day! Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

My Struggle is so real!

I thought that January was a rough month till February came. The first 1/2 anyway. I had the winter blues for a few days. Our weather is crazy. It was cold one week then we had rain the next and that caused some flooding in the area. Thank goodness I’m on top the mountain.

The past couple days have been awesome. The sun has been out and the temperature is in the mid 70’s. Now, I can actually get outside and relieve built up tension by walking or jogging.

I also need to get off this weight I gained back. It’s crazy, it took a year to lose enough weight for me to feel happy and comfortable with my appearance and I felt pretty healthy too. In three months I gained back half of what I lost. Many factors contributed. Holiday goodies, weather, lack of sleep, and a lot of stress. Let’s be real though. The biggest problem is I ate way more than necessary. It had nothing to do with burning calories because I still managed getting a workout inside the house. I just ate too much food that was bad for me. I let my emotions take over and I would eat junk food to make me feel better. Now I have to work extra hard to get in shape again.

You ever wonder about those that look like their lives are put together? Do they really enjoy getting up in the morning and exercising? Do they make mistakes? Do they not have stress? Is their life that perfect? My guess is no because perfection is really something you try to get but doesn’t really exist. That’s my opinion anyway. The closest to perfection is doing your best! So, I just have to ask myself everyday, was that the best you could do?

Thanks so much for reading and be the best you can be! God Bless!

It’s February ( how’s the resolutions going?)

It’s a month into the year and by this time most people have forgotten the resolutions they made or gave up because they couldn’t stick to them. There is still the few that remains that hate to give up and be considered a failure.

I’m still sticking to mine with a few bumps in the road. I hate giving up. I also try to not make any resolutions out of my comfort zone in fear of failing.

I’m still trying to see the good in everyday no matter how bad it was. This week was quite the challenge but I managed to find the silver lining. Sometimes right before midnight but nonetheless found ways to be grateful.

My exercise/diet challenge is a little harder. When it comes to cardio I’m great but eating is another story. I did good last week till the weekend. My youngest had a birthday on Saturday, my husband on Sunday, and there was homemade cookies my youngest had to bake for 4h. It was sugar-land at my house.

Eating good some days and very bad the other days has sent my body into turmoil. My IBS/C has been excruciating the last few days. Excuse me for this topic but if you have it then you’ll understand. I don’t remember having this much pain (feels like knife in side) for more than a few days. It will be a week tomorrow I’ve been dealing with it. I’m going to give it a few more days then I guess I’ll have to go to the DR.

The weather has been quite crazy here too in Tn. One minute it’s raining the next snowing. I am ready for spring. I don’t really believe in Groundhog Day but it’s fun to watch on TV. However, in case he could be right, I hope Punxsutawney Phil doesn’t see his shadow tomorrow.

I’m trying to get back to jogging but this weather is not making it easy. I am doing Zumba classes again on Mondays. It’s supposed to snow this coming Monday. I hope it waits till after class. No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to make friends with winter. Maybe we will get along better the last few weeks before spring comes. It’s like having a house guest you can’t wait to get rid of. Like how before they leave you get excited and get along with them knowing they will soon be gone. Which to tell the truth, Summer is the only season I hate to see go.

I guess I’m starting to ramble so that should be my cue to wrap things up.

I hope February is a great month! I love a Valentine’s Day. I try to make treats for my family. Then my oldest has a birthday this month. I think every month has a couple days where dieting is out the window. Problem is, we can take one holiday or birthday and celebrate it more than once. We’re crazy like that.

Have a great night! Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

January 22 ’18 ( Time to diet/exercise again)

This month is almost over!

I feel pretty good about how this month has gone so far. Considering that every time I turn around something needs fixed. If it’s not the central heat n air it’s a vehicle needing worked on. Least I have a home and transportation. That is how I’m trying to refocus my thoughts. Otherwise , I’d be mad and stressed all the time. Kinda like last year!

Today, I started back dieting/exercise till I reach my goal weight again. I somehow made a wrong turn over the holidays and stayed lost with the cold weather and stress as my navigators. I was pretty bummed about gaining weight back. I didn’t gain all of it back thank goodness. I was still pretty bummed though. However, I was not alone. Many people even famous people have gained some weight in the last few months. They too are working at getting back to their best self.

That’s how I’m looking at it. I’ve got to get back to my best self. My goal is to be there by Easter. Which is April 1 this year. I really do not like the idea Easter being on April fools day but it’s just how the moon phases. Seriously, it goes by the moon. Lol

My diet has been really good today. Exercise was good too but that’s really not my weak area. Eating is my weakness. I planned out my menu yesterday for today. It really was a big help. The rest of the week will be about the same. On the weekends I do plan to do moderation and eat what I’d like. My youngest and husband both have birthdays this weekend.

I resisted eating goulash and rolls tonight. Instead I had cauliflower and kidney beans with a slice of whole wheat bread and a boiled egg. Breakfast was easy I just did a protein shake with a cup of spinach. You can’t even taste the spinach. Lunch was raspberries and yogurt. For one of my snacks I made a mixture of baked chick peas, Cheerios, cashews, and 7 dark chocolate chips. It sounds weird but it was good. I ate it while waiting on the kids to get out of school. It was approximately 225 calories. Then for doing so good before I closed the kitchen I had a fiber one brownie for a treat. I’ve not been hungry all day. I had no mindless eating either. Now, if I can get through the rest of evening today will be a success.

I just hope I can sleep tonight. I’m trying to work on getting at least seven hours of sleep a night. Seems like no matter how tired I am I can’t rest. I’m hoping exercising in the morning instead of evening and no late night eating will help with that.

Hope you have a good week!

Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

January 16th 2018

The month is a little halfway over. My life feels busy but when I dissect it and look at it, it’s kinda boring lol. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life for the most part. Other than paying bills and things tearing up. I don’t like that part.

I am going to start teaching Zumba classes at the end of the month again. Just going to do one class a week for now. So, when I’m not cooking or cleaning I’m practicing new songs for my class.

Doing great at getting in my Fitbit step goal in. I aim for 12,500 steps at least. My eating has been very bad. I made the best homemade chocolate chip cookies last week. Big mistake! I think I ate almost two dozen in three days. I wasn’t the only one, not that it makes it right. It just makes me feel better knowing I wasn’t the only one who made a pig of themselves.

I took my youngest to get her ears pierced for an early birthday present. Then we had a girls lunch with my oldest at the Cheesecake Factory. I knew my calories would be outrageous but I had know idea how outrageous till I came home and put it in my Fitness Pal App. We had pasta, bread and cheesecake. We were celebrating remember. Good thing we don’t celebrate like this a lot. I had so many calories that my app told me if I ate like that everyday for five weeks I’d gain 14 pounds. First time it ever told me that I’d gain weight lol. This is why I should have kept track of my food during the holidays. Maybe, I wouldn’t be needing to shed a dress size now.

I don’t regret going but I should of only ate half and brought the other half home. I’ve not ate much today. I’m trying to break even on the calories.

The kids had a snow day today and they have another one tomorrow. I think we have enough snow to go sledding tomorrow, if it isn’t too cold. If it’s too cold to play outside I guess we will have to play board games indoors.

Have a great night!

Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

Thoughts about today

First thought today was…..it’s too cold!

Today, I started out my regular routine. I had laundry, cleaning and cooking to start off this new year.

I did have a good day even though I had plenty of work to do. Finding happiness in a day can be hard sometimes, but today was pretty easy.

I got a Instant Pot for Christmas. I’ve already used it three times. I really like it so far. I’ve made beans, meatballs, and today chili. I love that you can sauté before pressure cooking all in one pan.

My younger kids are still on Christmas break till Thursday. My oldest is home from college/work till tomorrow. I really enjoy having all my family home.

Today, I feel amazing compared to last week. I either had a very bad cold or flu and on top of that pink eye. My son had been sick and he passed it on to me along with the pink eye. Which he got from school before break. It took me five days before I got it.

My husband and I had our 17th anniversary yesterday. I was so happy to feel well enough to go out to eat. I only had runny nose and slightly red eye. My symptoms are almost all gone. Which is a good I was afraid I was going to start this year sick. Many prayers and zinc was the best medicine.

I still love my Fitbit. My old one died and I didn’t get a new one till after Thanksgiving. I bought it online on Black Friday. I was so happy to have one again. I got the Alta this time with heart rate. I like it so much. Last week was the first time I fell below 100,000 steps for a week. I only got a little over 40,000 which was very bad. Today, I am back on track and I reached my goal of 12,500.

Nothing exciting for the first day of 2018. It’s just been a good, ordinary day. Which is fine by me! Because, my goal is to find something good in every day!

Thanks for reading and God Bless!

My Struggle is Real……..Results!

One year ago from today ,I set out to prove to myself I could lose weight. I blogged everyday to help me stay accountable. I barely got any sleep last night thinking of everything I wanted to go over that I learned. 

First, I learned that the older you get the wiser you get. You also get more determined to conquer whatever you set out to do. This has something to do with the fact I seem to care less about what other people may think about me. Don’t get me wrong I still get upset if people don’t like me for no reason. It’s my life, my journey and if I’m not doing anything that interferes with my walk with Jesus or hurting anyone then I’m good to go.

 What did I actually set out to do? I set out to stop losing and gaining the same pounds over and over. I set out to be the strongest person I could be. I know age is just a number but my number last year was 42 and I felt 62. I’m 43 this year and sometimes I feel 43 and sometimes I feel 63. Today, I feel older due to the rain causing me pain. Don’t know how it does it but it really makes my body ache. I take vitamins to help conquer what aging throws at me. Turmeric and Fish oil do help. 

Life is what you make of it. If you say you can’t do something. Then you never will. I’ve learned instead of saying can’t you should say won’t. I won’t do a lot of things because I lack the desire. I can do anything I set out to do. I might not do them perfectly but I’ll do them. Trying and failing to do things is still an accomplishment because you went from not doing something to doing it the best way you could.

I’ve learned exercising is important. I also learned if I don’t like something ,I’m not going to do it for long. I tried jogging. I met my goal to jog three miles straight. But, after awhile it bored me. I started feeling like I was in a hamster wheel. I will still jog when the mood hits. I tried walking up the mountain. I actually love this but I can’t do it year around. I’m afraid of snakes in the summer. During hunting season I’d rather not take chances on being mistaken for a deer and then there’s the fear of freezing before reaching the top in the winter. So, what’s left I can do? I like to dance! I’m not great at it but I’ve always had a place in my heart to do it. The right music and I can burn them calories up. I love 80s music and now Latin music thanks to Zumba. I still sometimes can’t believe I went and got certified to teach Zumba. It took me awhile but I found the cardio for me. That’s what everyone needs to do. Find the cardio that works for them. I’m still working on stretching and doing weights. They are important but I do neglect them more than I should.

I’ve learned no matter how much I exercise if I don’t eat right I’m going to maintain my weight or worse, gain! The one thing I’ve tried to do this year is track my food and stay active for 30 minutes doing something if it was just walking in place. It’s not about dieting it’s about knowing what you’re consuming and how it will affect your health. 

I guess by now you want to know if I met my goal. I started off weighing 177 pounds. I weighed in this morning knowing I was not going to reach my goal of 145. Here are my results!


I was totally shocked. It’s actually a little under my goal. I thought for sure I’d be about two pounds away. I had a blog prepared about not reaching my goal. I met my goal barely. I have to admit that if I didn’t go low carb for the last few days ,I would not have reached my goal. It was extremely hard too. I love carbs! One day I had 88 carbs and the two other days I did about 50. The weird thing is my fat totals were over by 12 grams one day and 17 another. I guess my body can process fat but when it comes to carbs, sugar, and sodium it has a harder time. Everyone’s body is different. My advice is find what works for you. I won’t be doing low carb everyday but I think I’m going to try to stay in the 75-100 goal most days. I really like not waking up bloated. Also, if my carbs are lower my sugar and sodium are good too. 

My goal for the future is to maintain my weight and I wouldn’t mind if I lost ten more pounds. I realized I could’ve lost more weight but I also would have missed out on birthday cakes, lunch dates with my children, dinner with my family, social gatherings, and holiday treats and feasts. I never deprived myself during my diet. Except for the last three days! I didn’t want to diet. I wanted to be able to enjoy food in moderation no matter what it was. I won’t give up eating the foods I love. I might not eat as much of them but that just makes them more special when I do.  I can’t wait for dinner tonight because it’s spaghetti night. I think the statement ” it’s not what you eat but how much you eat” is very true. The only thing I gave up was diet pop. That was very hard to do and I still get cravings. It really did cause me to have more inflammation and pain in my body. I now drink Coke Life one to two times a week. 

I’m stronger than I was a year ago. I plan to get stronger and better every year. I always tell my husband I’m going to be like fine wine and get better with age. They say wine does anyway, I don’t drink so I’m not sure. I want to find new ways to be healthier and happier. Thanks to doing this, I now have clothes that are too loose and just right. No more too small. What really surprised me through all this. I was the only one who cared how big I was. My family still can’t believe I lost that much weight. They didn’t know I was overweight. They didn’t see my size they just saw me. They loved me for who I was not my looks. I think that is so sweet. It also proves you can’t lose weight for others you can only do it for yourself. You are the one that knows if you need to improve your health. You are the only one who will be putting in the work. It’s all up to you. The Struggle is a Real, but so worth it!

Start your journey today! Don’t wait to be the person you want to be. If you don’t want to blog to the world, start a daily journal. I also highly recommend the fitness pal app and a device to track your steps. It really made a difference for me.

Thanks to all who read, commented, and followed my blog! I hope this helps at least one person. 

I hope you have a great life!

Thanks so much for reading and God Bless!

Here are my before and after pictures! No judgement please lol

Measurements: 

 chest started off at 42 inches ,now 38.5

Arms L 13-now 11.5 R 13.5 now 12 inches

Waist was 41.5 inches, now 37.5 

L Thigh was 25.5 now 22

R Thigh was 26 now 22.5

17.5 inches lost combined